Remember

I felt like this was a good time to start our adoption blog. It's something I one day want to show our children. We haven't filled papers out yet. We haven't even picked an agency (although we're close).

I wanted to spend this time (before the busy paper work begins) recapping why we want to adopt, how God has brought us to this point, and our struggles and joys along the way - maybe I should rephrase that, joy through our struggles along the way.

I know that once the application is signed and meetings begin and paperwork is due, I will only write about what is going on. So this is a time for me to reflect and REMEMBER. That's something I need to do more often. Wrapped up in circumstances only makes you aware of how God is not providing for what you want at the moment. Reflecting on His faithfulness in the past brings you a peace that only He can provide.

Martin and I aren't super Saints for wanting to adopt. We're weird. I've accepted that. The normal person wants to have a baby the way it's been done since Adam and Eve. I want that. I hope for that but it's not my first choice. Not because I don't want it to be but because God has allowed me to see that He (so far) has chosen something different for Martin and me. And simply put:::I want what God wants.

I'm so excited to see what God is going to DO through us. Bringing a baby or a child or children in through whatever way He pleases. We just want to be available.